Becoming my own warrior.

So recently, I have been taking new views on my life. There's senior year, graduation, and college. What's not to think about right now? I usually don't give away my secrets when I find my own happiness, but if I can help someone else be happy, that makes me happy.

This "new view" isn't new to this world, nor should it be new to most females trying to figure out life. I have been able to travel to Europe, and although that isn't the end of my travels it has made me realize how big this world is. It isn't anything like the Disney World ride that repeats the same song over and over again, because it's untrue. Yes, I know that you could go on vacation and happen to meet someone that knows your aunt's cousin's niece, but that isn't the point. The point is that travel is one thing that can make almost everyone happy. I get my traveling happiness by continually watching Eat. Pray. Love. Although it's about a middle aged woman who leaves life for a year to travel to Italy, India, and Bali, I find so much to relate to in that movie. I do own the book as well, but haven't had the time to read it. I do wish that I had the time and money to just drop everything for a year to learn a new language in its native country, pray to a guru to find the source of everything, and "Have a love affair in Bali." 

It isn't everyday that you find multiple things that you can call your rock and source of happiness. I can say that other than watching a movie over and over again and fantasizing over what my life will be like when I get older I have found a love and a happiness for this amazing thing called Zumba. If you haven't tried it, I suggest you do because it is such a rush. Who knows, maybe you'll find your calling. 

I have never been that girl who knows exactly what she wants when she wants it. I have always been a changer. I think I have changed my mind about what I want to major in in college like 20 times since I was a little girl. But even though I have all of this stress to think about, going into my senior year of high school, I find that the two things that have made me the happiest for my entire life, is music and my friends. I can be having the crappiest day ever and I walk into my auditorium and see my "choir family" and nothing can change my smile for the rest of the day. 

So maybe you don't like movies, books, Zumba, or anything fun in this world. But as long as you have something that you're passionate about and that makes you happy, that's all that matters. This world is going to suck for everyone at one point or another in their lives. I just hope that maybe, I can help those that see this to make the changes necessary to live a happy life. But be warned that it isn't easy in the least. Being happy takes time and you have to learn to love yourself before you love anyone else or before anyone can truly love you. "Be so happy that when others look at you, they become happy too."